Wouldn't you know it, as soon as I think to myself "I can do this. I can be completely honest about this" I'm hit with another bout of depression and I don't want to be honest about this. I want my first post to be positive and up lifting. I want people to come here and think it's a blog worth reading and follow me. So, what to do...Do I really keep it real? Do I really lay it on the line and admit that today Chiari is kicking my rear and I hurt like heck and I just want to cry? I feel like nothing is ever going to be better because there is no cure and it doesn't get better? Sure, I have days where the symptoms aren't as bad and I can smile and fake it better. I can look normal for YOU better...but I'M never better.
And before anyone decides to rip me for my unChrist-like attitude, you can leave it at the door. I challenge anyone else to walk in my shoes an wear a Pollyanna smile 24/7. You won't find anyone in the Bible who did so don't try and force that standard on me. I'm a follower of Christ and I'm very obviously not perfect. I've never claimed to be. I've only ever claimed to be an imperfect person seeking His grace. That grace only works IN my weakness anyway...
Anyway, if you made it this far, Thank you. Stick around. I could certainly use your support and prayers...and tomorrow will surely be a better day, right?
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